Life

I couldn't have read this at a more perfect time. Lately I have fallen the most in love with God than I have ever been, not to say that I haven't been tested harder and put through tougher trials than I have been... all it really is is life throwing itself at you. With satan's distractions from realizing what God's purpose really is for you. The past couple weeks I have been coming to more and more realizations in my life about where I'm at in life and why I'm there (here). Discovering more about my own self and why I cherish the friendships, relationships, and loved ones that I have and have had and why I have them.
Life is an amazing thing and I'm so thankful that I still have mine and pray that it doesn't come to an end anytime soon, and I pray these same words over my friends and loved ones.

Thank you for whoever wrote this, you have no idea how much it's meant to me.

That's what I wrote after I read this...

So I've discovered recently how to be real with God, about where I've been (as if he didn't already know) and where I'm at (as if He wasn't already aware). Like I mentioned before, I can't be helped if I'm not honest.

I am still struggling with anger and love; people past and present still irritate me and I gotta figure out a way to deal with it. Gotta figure out how to love people. After all that is where Christ is, in love. The greatest commandment isn't show people how to live their lives, it's not give to the poor, it's not tithe, it's Love. Love God and Love your neighbor. Before you do ANYTHING else, Love God, and Love People.

The book we are reading in my small group (which has been an absolute Godsend) has a chapter entitled "Training vs. Trying". Anything you want to do requires training, not trying it once or twice and deciding it didn't work out. If I want to become skilled at not freaking out, I must train myself to not freak out. I dunno, maybe force myself to get caught in rush hour for practice on how not to ram people with my car...If I want to learn how to really love people, i must TRAIN I must PRACTICE so that I then become QUALIFIED. I'm going to work on this.

My life in singledom continues. I'm trying to use it as a means to grow and learn and become a much more improved person. Whenever I think I've got it down, God shows me a new wound that I've ignored and needs work.

Meanwhile,

I'm discovering beauty in this world and in my friends. I can honestly say I am thankful for this storm and that I was spared from settling into a life that would not have worked for me. There is a glimpse of sun, and that's real :)